Can't sleep clown will eat me

I'm really good at updating my blog

2009-11-02T18:37:00.003-05:00

I always forget about this thing. I'm no longer going to bother saying i'll update it because it never happens. If i update i update, whatever, no one reads this anyway.

America is good. The weather is so up and down it's annoying. I really don't want it to get cold because it being cold at home is nothing compared to it being cold here. Our cold at home in the middle of winter is their version of "nice weather" during the day. Fuck that haha. My hermit life will begin shortly.

Went to Boston a couple of weeks ago for the last Have heart show. I never really got into them until they toured Australia, they're a lot of fun live so i'm glad i went. There was a ridiculous amount of people there which is obviously standard for a big band like that. Saw Bane, it was shitty to see them with so many people around. Highlight of the trip was finally getting to eat my favourite pasta ever, of which i've craved since i left America last year and it snowing on our way to Boston.

Next day after the show i rushed home to watch football(which is my new thing i like) and then went to a show after. Saw Bane, Blacklisted, Foundation(who were surprisingly good), and some other bands i don't remember but were terrible anyway. Fun to see Bane again at a normal show, got to see some people who i haven't seen in a while. It was still a shock for them i guess because they're not really friends, just people i met last year. It was fun though.

Halloween sucked. Went to so much effort to get costumes, money and time wasted because i didn't do anything. Went out for dinner with Ray and Gfern and then hung at mine. Not very exciting or interesting.

Latest news is the younger girl i live with went to Florida on a holiday and one of the girls she went with has the swine so shit has hit the fan, hopefully all is good.

Yankees vs Phillies game five is on. I don't really care about either teams, Red Sox were knocked out so i stopped caring but i've been watching the last couple of games. I guess i want Yankees to win but whatever.

8:39am

2009-09-24T08:39:00.002-04:00

I'm not as happy here as what i thought i would be. What the hell is wrong with me?
I do love love love my new adopted family though, i couldn't have asked for any more awesome people.
Penny is here in two weeks, that will make me ridiculously happy and excited. Siked.

I'm going to the mall to spend some hard cash. I'll post my hopefully good finds on here when i'm done.

AMERICA V.2

2009-09-20T02:10:00.000-04:00

So i arrived in to America on Thursday and NJ on Friday morning.
My flight was delayed four hours from Sydney to San Francisco, finally arrived at San Fran at like 3, got interrogated for 45 mins by immigration, waited six hours for my connecting flight, arrived at Newark at like 7:30 Friday morning.
Jill, the lady who i'm staying with, picked me up and we got dunkin donuts. I'm glad to be back in America so i can eat foodz from there. We got to her house, which is just beautiful and in a beautiful street. I unpacked and ended up sleeping all day until like six. She has the craziest dogs who are all so cute but bark at absolutely everything and anything.
Finally got to meet her daughter Brittany who is fourteen and so cute.

Saturday morning the three of us went to starbucks where i meet the cutest boy(must get name) who's talking to me about wanting to go to Australia. We then went grocery shopping which was absolutely ridiculous. We first went to Walmart just because i wanted to go there and it's insane, it has everything you can think of. Then went to a couple of other grocery stores.
Went home and started to set up for Brittany's birthday party.
Saturday night i hung out with Ray and met gfern and hung with a few other girls. We went to some park by some river surrounded by condos with lights everywhere and a gazebo, that's about as explanatory i can be, i had ZERO idea where i was but whatever. We drove around for a bit then went to Mij's and hung with Janise and more people. I haven't seen any of these people in over a year so it was real cool. Came home, hung a little longer and slept.

Now it's today and we're having a whole bunch of family come over for a huge italian dinner that Jill spent all day cooking while i was sleeping the day away.

Surprising people wasn't so good. Whatever.

This whole post is so vague but whatever, ima try update it more often.

The time has come.

2009-09-16T10:38:00.002-04:00

I depart tomorrow.
Surprise is coming.
I'm nervous and kind of excited.
Over packing.
Yay.

Happy Birthday Elissa!

2009-07-22T07:50:00.007-04:00

I had a very, very good weekend. Britt and Alex came down from Port for Elissas birthday. I was so, soooo excited. Party at Elissa and Garry's new house :)
I'm just going to post a whole bunch of photos. I had so much fun with these amazing girls. xoxoxoxo

First photo of being 20 :)

Best girls, so much fun.

Happy 20th Birthday, Elissa! :) xoxoxoxoxo

P.S. I got moved to a different section at work today which secures my job for the next month. Yayayay

First post of 09

2009-07-01T11:32:00.003-04:00

Sooooo i i've kind of abandoned my blog. Whatever.
Now that i'm sitting here thinking, nothing has really changed too drastically over the last six or so months. Two very important people to me walked away, one of whom i have no idea why, nothing happened, she just stopped talking to me. I must be SUCH a horrible friend. Anyway, New job, new phone, new friends. That's really about it haha.

I've been very sick for the last few days. Finally went to the doctor today. I have tonsillitis, bronchitis and the flu. Good life haha. My work is permanently aids ridden, especially with the air con re circulating it through every day.

I'm going back to America in September and today i got to look at the house i will be living in and it's sooo cute, i'm SO excited!

I having nothing else to say.

Blog view count

2008-12-11T09:59:00.002-05:00

Every time i update my blog i notice the view count getting abundantly higher every time, which intrigues me. Who is reading my blog? Who is actually taking the time out of their day to view and read my blog?

If you're one of these people, i don't care who you are, please comment my posts or let me know somehow. I'm really interested in this.

Photo 15.

2008-12-11T07:46:00.000-05:00

Photo 14.

2008-12-10T06:43:00.000-05:00

I watched this movie for the first time today. I actually really, really enjoyed it. There isn't even that much to the storyline but i don't know
I kind of wish i was like Sam in the movie. She's adorable, quirky and fun.
It made me miss New Jersey.

Photo 13.

2008-12-09T07:30:00.000-05:00

Fuck

2008-12-09T06:57:00.002-05:00

Some seriously family shit went down tonight. Fuck.

On a brighter note i spent the day with Jaz and Tyler. Tyler is 7 months old and he's grown sooooooo so much since the last time i saw him.
He has his own personality and is already incredibly cheeky. So cute so so cute.
I love children.
We went to the plaza and did a little shopping. I bought Kurt's chocolate. It's all packaged up and ready to send tomorrow, yay!
Also purchased a new pair of ray bans. I left mine in Ray's car in America (i suuuck!!). My eyesies have been hurting a lot lately whilst driving (stupid sun) so i just bought a new pair.

-

2008-12-08T09:17:00.003-05:00

I'm so glad my friends enjoy spending time with me and ask me out to hang with them all the time. I'm so glad you value my friendship.

Oops i forgot ~~

You know what? I don't even expect to hang out with them all the time but when you're hanging out and know i'm sitting at home feeling worthless and don't even bother to ask me. Really makes me feel like shit.

Photo 12.

2008-12-08T07:22:00.000-05:00

Gettin' creative.

Photo 11.

2008-12-07T07:15:00.000-05:00

My teeth are rotting, thanks New Jersey. I do wish we had these flavours here, though.

Photo 10.

2008-12-06T07:54:00.003-05:00

My purchase for the day. My life is over :)

Photo 9.

2008-12-04T19:45:00.000-05:00

Terrible skin lately. I wish my webcam showed the rest of my blemishes(or do i?).

Photo 8.

2008-12-04T07:10:00.000-05:00

Half my christmas shopping done.

Photo 7.

2008-12-03T07:00:00.000-05:00

The Lovely Bones.

All i want for christmas.

2008-12-03T06:56:00.000-05:00

Is the following. In order of preference.

so i can

or for Ray to

V.2

I don't ask for much.

Even though majority of them things are expensive, the others aren't and i like to think i'm easy to please. I mean really, in hindsight, i just want to be with my friend, watch my favourite band in a lounge room, spoon someone, receive mix tapes/cds, have some money, own my first and only pair of expensive heels and have a massage.

Photo 6.

2008-12-02T05:42:00.002-05:00

Photo 5.

2008-12-01T07:30:00.001-05:00

I have the best best best best besssttttt american friend ever!!!!! Yay Janise <3

Photo 4.

2008-11-30T07:16:00.006-05:00

Hamish, Andy, Lauren and meeee.

Hamish and Andy

2008-11-30T06:56:00.004-05:00

Today Lauren and i went to Castle Hill to meet Hamish and Andy. Stood in line for four hours. One person threw up and another fainted. It was hot as shit and i got super sunburnt but only on half my chest/one boob? How that works i have no idea.

It was good to spend the day just chilling with Lauren and being excited about something for once (yes, we are losers).

Us being very excited. Only half an hour standing there.

Still excited.

The cause of my future sun cancer today.

Three hours in, delirious and haggard.

Lauren cried after meeting them hahahaha. Bessssttt!!!

In the end we waited for just over four hours to meet them, not going to avoid sounding like a 15 year old girl but it was totally worth it and they're super cute irl. NO CARE EVER.

I'm so tired so i will be sleeping and probably have heatstroke.

Going to apply aloe vera gel, bai!

Photo3.

2008-11-29T10:08:00.003-05:00

Tired after six hours of cleaning.

Photo 2.

2008-11-28T06:52:00.003-05:00

Today has two photos because it's been a big day.

Redundancy.

RIP Dad. 11 years and it's not getting any easier.

No more working.

2008-11-28T06:40:00.003-05:00

Sooo i was right. I got made redundant today. I received my letter and that was that.

Late afternoon i packed my stuff up and said goodbyes.

The last few weeks i've gotten really close to everyone at my work so i was upset to say goodbye, especially to my mate BJ. He was my daily lunch buddy and we talked about everything, we always stuck together and now it's over. Sucks.

I've been waiting for this day to come for a while now it just really sucks that it happened so soon and so fast.

Apparently everyone else at my work will be made redundant in two weeks as well, though. It sucks, finding a job is really hard.

I think i'm just going to take a couple of weeks to sit around and chill out, something i feel i really need. I need to take some time to figure out what i want to do with myself and work my way there. After these couple of weeks are up i'll start applying for new jobs and see how i go. I don't even have a resume, i've never needed one. This weekend will be spent making a resume.

I'm scared. I don't know how long my pay out from my job is going to last. I guess i'll have to make it last.

So that's that. My job at Capital Corp is done and dusted, all over.

My job.

2008-11-27T17:12:00.002-05:00

Okay, so I work for a company called Capital Corp Finance, they're publicly owned by a company called Cmi.
Two days ago cmi sold 51% of Capital Corp to a couple of private investors, these investors will then restructure capital corp.
Due to the current financial crisis business has turned to shit and we're not earning enough income to service each office. I believe my office itself cost our company $40,000 last month. We have shitty brokers who are incapable of doing their jobs properly, costing the company all this money.
If anyone has had a conversation with me in the last few days they would have heard my thoughts and speculation.
I think that they will make the two shitty brokers and myself redundent, put one of the girls in support staff(what i am) onto the road to be a full time broker and make our other support staff girl the only support staff in the office.
Tough times for our company.
My manager goes on holidays tomorrow for two weeks and if they're going to make me redundent then i hope that they do it today.

I gotta find a new job. Yikes.

Picture 1.

2008-11-27T06:02:00.003-05:00

As i was pondering to myself tonight i decided that i'm going to try take a photo everyday and update my blog with each photo.

Todays photo is of a note my manager at work left on my computer today. He tried doing it on the sly this morning without me finding out, he also left one on everyone elses computers, different face for each person. He's legit losing the plot.

Confirmation of entering the electronic visa entry(american green card). Fingers crossed.

The Mongoloids.

2008-11-27T01:16:00.004-05:00

Hey everyone,
My friends band has just put up pre orders for their new record.
If you haven't even listened to them then i suggest you have a listen www.myspace.com/mongoloidsnj
I saw them a few times while i was in America and they're awesome, a ton of fun. Takes a bit to get used to but once you do it's happy days from there.

Six Feet Under records have put pre orders up.

The Mongoloids of Edison, New Jersey are back with a 12" of new material. By now the Mongos are practically a household name to hardcore kids around the world but in case you're still unfamiliar, they combine the metallic elements of say, Megadeth, with the crunch of your favorite New York Hardcore bands for a riff-rocking mosh-friendly combination that has infected the brains of more hardcore kids than syphillis. These straight edge youngsters have made quite a name for themselves with their recent US and European tour, and their new release contains a tight and measured approach to hardcore than can only be obtained by rocking stage after stage around the globe. In fact, it's not unlike the previous Mongoloids material but hotter solos and meaner vocals. Cop the new record and memorize the Mongo Stomp parts before they rock a town near you in the near future.

You can order this two ways.

Order the record itself: http://www.sixfeetunderrecords.com/catalog/product_info.php?cPath=21&products_id=407

Or order the preorder package, which is the record and an exclusive preorder shirt. The shirt comes in white or black so just pick your size:

http://www.sixfeetunderrecords.com/catalog/index.php?cPath=35

The limited vinyl is first come, first serve. Doesnt matter if you order the shirt or not, the records go out in depending on who ordered first.

If you want to get it on cd go visit the Eulogy records website.

If you don't order anything, at least listen.

Thankyou, and goodbye.

I miss my friends

2008-11-27T00:52:00.004-05:00

America was too long ago and the last few days i've been really missing my friends. Ray, Janise, Mij, Manny, Emia. I got too attached to these guys and it sucks.
I go through stages of being alright and then getting sad. I'm currently going through sad moments.
I've never been scared of dying, but for the first time ever i'm actually terrified. I'm scared of dying before seeing these people again. The more i think about it the more i freak the fuck out. What a stupid fucking state of mind to be in.
I'm an idiot.

I'm bad at this

2008-11-19T18:06:00.003-05:00

Okay, so maybe i should never have started this blog because i'm so hopeless at updating.
I guess i'll try summerise the last week or so as short as possible.

Went to Ruiner last Wednesday. Made mates with one of the dudes, he was alright. I'm not that into Ruiner so i didn't take to them very much.
I cleared things up with someone i've been bickering with for a long time. I felt exhausted fighting with people over nothing. It was a few days before my birthday, i'm getting older and i felt like i should grow up and leave it be. We had a long conversation and it's over. Thankyou.

Friday night i went to a show in St Ives to see Worlds Aparty. It made me realise i really know nothing about any new Sydney bands or people. I honestly do not have the time to listen to new bands, i really wish i did. Although, i guess when every new band sounds the same and don't stand out to me how can i be expected to be blown away? I do give them props for getting up there and having a go. I couldn't play an instrument if my life depended on it.
I tried playing guitar all through high school, i choose to blame my stumps for fingers for the inability to play. I also tried drums. I actually owned a drum kit in grade 8. This phase lasted me a whole six months, i even took drum lessons. You see, i have a very short attention span and if i'm not good at something after a few tries i give up. Oh woe is me.
Anyway, after the show Aj came and stayed over. He wanted to sleep with the air con on. We did and alas, i awoke on Saturday morning with a killer of a throat.
We chilled on Saturday and unfortunately Aj glued himself to fresh prince for a couple of hours, eventually i was too.
I had to turn the tv off before beginning another episode so we could actually get up and do something.
We went to the plaza to do a couple of things and buy a few things in preperation for the night.
Aj enjoyed babbling to the cashier at Woolworths about how limes are out of season and some other junk.

Saturday night was my little bbq/drinks for my birthday, and little it was.
I was really disappointed by the people who bailed on me. Especially the ones who i, time and time again, do shit for. Made me realise i have a lot less friends than what i already thought.
Thanks to the ones who came.
We all drank a lot, including Aj who threw up in my bathroom and tried lying to me about it hahaha. All the dad calls that were made(fuuuck), the amount of swearing that went on in front of my family(including me slipping the c word) and my parents not saying a word about it and Aj hating his job so much it was all he spoke about... TO EVERYONE.

Sunday was my actual birthday. It was alright. Aj, Dan and i picked up some pizzas and scoffed them all down. Some conversation was had about all going back to America together next year, i hope this happens.
Thenthey had to leave.
I opened presents and hung out watching tv, nothing special. Best part of the day was skyping with Ray. Janise came on as well and i got a "hello mate" in a fake australian accent from Emia.
I couldn't have thought of a better way to end my birthday.

By the way, Saturday night the boys wanted to sleep with the air con on again, I stupidly said yes and awoke on Sunday feeling even worse.

Monday i felt like death but had to go because the other two girls would still be on holidays and my work needs me to be there to run everything.
Tuesday and Wednesday i had off work seeing as the girls would be back from their holiday.
tuesday i went to the doctor to get checked out, he was a moron.
BUUUTT best news of all i bought the very pretty new purple ghd. I really can't afford it but i couldn't help myself. My hairdresser helped justify it to myself by saying it's a birthday present to myself and HEY! I'm happy with that justification!!
Anyway, basically just spent the last two days in bed watching Sex and the city on dvd that i got for my birthday. I'm up to season three already.

Now it's Wednesday and i'm back at work. I'm still not better but i came in before my boss fires me haha.
I suck, though, i come in and find that Loudi(one of the brokers) is really sick and her daughter who also works with us is sick as well. Loudi caught it off me and then took it home and gave it to her daughter. Oops.

I really hope i'm better by Saturday night because No Apologies last show is on.

I didn't simplify that at all haha.
Being sick sucks and all i can say is: I guess falling asleep with the air con on only works with one person in America.

Coffee

2008-11-10T08:42:00.002-05:00

Yeah soooooo coffee tonight with Penny was a bad idea. Yeah might have been okay if it was late afternoon but we went at 10pm so i can't sleep now.

Star City on Saturday was okay. We all felt so sick afterwards, to the point of barfing.

Went to Dans afterwards. Him and i ended up falling asleep it sucked. Woke up about 1am and had to drive home. Attempted taking a different way home which resulted in me getting lost and taking a lot longer to get home.

Worked the whole weekend, it sucked. I got today off though. Slept late and went shopping. Purchased a few things including season two of Full House which i'm watching right now.

I actually have nothing to say. Another pointless entry.

Weekend

2008-11-07T23:54:00.002-05:00

It's been a couple of days since i've posted here, oops.

Yesterday i worked. It was boring with nothing to do(as per usual these days).
Left work early to pick Penny up from the airport. Her parents have some random hate against her at the moment haha. Decided to go to the show at the Manning Bar with her.
I had to take drunk Rowan home. He lives on this creepy as fuck road with shitty, sudden and quick corners. Defs nearly crashed a couple of times. As i was leaving his drive way he sent me an email saying he saw a guy on his street before so be careful. Fuck you Rowan, fuck you.

This morning i went and picked up some American cash i ordered. $250 Australian dollars brought $166 American dollars. Fuck the Australian dollar right now. The person who i'm doing this for better like it or i'll be pissed.

Now i'm at work. The phone has rung twice, they were both people i work with. I've had absolutely nothing to do all day.
I bought two pillows in with me. I had a 30min nap earlier, i think i'm due for another. Sooooo tired.

After work, though, i'm going to Star City with Dan, Ryan, Ryans girl Dael and i don't know who else is coming along. We're having an eating competition so i've tried to eat as minimal as possible today. Alas, Ryan is a bit of a machine in the eating department so i don't know how that will go over.

Speaking to American friends who i haven't spoken to in a while makes me happy.

Going to nap again.

2008 President election- Obama!!

2008-11-04T23:27:00.003-05:00

Spent all day at work on the edge of my seat following the votes.
Obama!
Good work America, i'm siked.

Penpals

2008-11-04T05:08:00.002-05:00

Yesterday B9 had a thread about penpals.

Last time i participated in a thread like this i had four penpals but only one continued to write back, he actually sent me some cool records.

This time i've hooked myself up with three new penpals but open for more. I like sending/receiving letters and packages.

Last night i bought a whole bunch of Miles Away stuff off Brendan. Even though i'm broke due to this i'm so siked to get this stuff. I want a Miles Away collection.

Also, yesterday i spent all day thinking and i decided to have a birthday bbq/drinks at my house. I invited a few people, only the ones who i really care about and want there. Some can come, some can't. It's a huge bum out to hear those who can't come.

I don't feel weird about being 20. I don't really care about my birthday this year. This year has been so full of ups and downs i can't wait for it to be over. I'm really hoping 2009 can give me some more insight and guidance into what i want to do with my life. It's fucking terrifying and difficult.

Next year i'll be going back to America. This time longer and this time hopefully will be with someone. I was going to wait until i turn 21 to return but i really cannot wait that long. I miss the place more than i can ever explain. Trust me on this one.

Work was boring as hell today. Melbourne cup was on so my manager was at a "function". At around 2:30pm everyone in my office walked up to the pub for drinks and to watch the race. This is the first time in a few years that i didn't watch the race but i really didn't care/really didn't want to go to the pub and be surrounded by hundreds of drunk workers.

I stayed in the office whilst everyone went out and drank. They were gone for a couple of hours which was cool, i guess. I got to go home early though which was fine by me.

Met up with Carly and we went to hogs breath for dinner. Was good.

I've been getting the worst migraines lately i don't know what to do anymore. I think this time it might be because i'm not getting enough sleep lately and i'm not eating very often.

So in my agenda of things to do.

- Send to SWAPBOT partners x4

- B9 penpals x3

- B9 secret santa x1

- BGO secret santa x1

- Buy my miles away/no apologies ticket

Anyway, it's almost 9:30 and i'm already behind schedule time of sleepy. I don't know why i do this to myself.

Pointless post.

Peace x,

Number one.

2008-11-03T00:18:00.003-05:00

New blog. I'm hoping i can actually maintain this one. I don't know why i have such a hard time doing so.

This weekend was one of the best weekends i've had in months. The only mishap was leaving my wallet at home. No ID or money.
Friday i was told to go home at 4(instead of 5). I didn't bother arguing that one.
Drove up to the central coast(an hour and a half away). Stayed at nan and pops house. Watched a movie with nan.
Saturday, i got a nice sleep in and baked cupcakes for the party. Nan and i later went out to buy some containers and i met up with Matt and Brooke. Brooke was lovely enough to let me transfer money into her account and withdraw it for me. Thanks Brooke.
Shopped for some party goods, went back to nan and pops, decorated my cupcakes and got ready.
Drove to Owens new house and took everything inside. Started drinking almost immediately out of a glass that resembled a vase mmmm.
Aj arrived and i was siked. He just got home from America(hence the party) so i was overly happy to see him.
Everyone got quite drunk, Manginas were shown, bad fart smells, good 90's music, good food, matt breaking my hiptop and later on me passing out on the couch.
Awoke on Sunday feeling like shit, as did Matt. He barfed. Had nurofen and went back to sleep. Awoke later on feeling amazing.
Drank three quarters of a bottle of vodka which i think is a fair decent effort.
Spent Sunday hanging with Aj. We went to terrigal and got ice cream. Sooooo good (L) cold rock.
After all that i drove down to Sydney and went to the show at the sando.
So happy to see Alix and Drew again. They should stop living so far away. Good hangs with lix and Elissa.
I got to spend equal time with my friends and had a lot of fun with them all. Saw other friends i don't get to see very often(thanks to my antisocial personality).
Drove Dan home aftfer the show. Seeing him always makes me happy.

All in all it was a great weekend with so many good friends. First time i've felt this happy probably since i got back from America.

Some photos from the party. There isn't many.

If i don't get a warning after what happened at work today i'll be very surprised. I hate my job.
Very tired after the weekend. Going to go home and sleep straight away.

Peace x.